the world shines

when i was 17 i had this boyfriend who made me a mix CD which was really cute and used to buy me books i'd really love to read and i think about him sometimes because i think i might've loved him only i didn't know it then. is that weird? i saw him once after that and just ignored him because i didn't know what to say. i broke up with him over email once i found out my dad was dying or whatever so that is never a nice block to make conversation about. i only really have two friends who have properly known me +16 so it's not really something i talk about much but i think when my dad was really sick i turned into a completely different person. most of the time when i look back on experiences i draw blanks so i cut a lot out of my life and i'm living still now but there is nothing outside of this wonder, is there.

if i go there, i won't stay there

I've decided to join the liberal democrats to thwart the local bnp votes in my area and so therefore i am thinking about life in this part of town again which i used to think automatically takes me to backwards living and stupid racist bigots all around me all the time.. but now i like to believe that i am becoming 'not so self involved' and am meeting up with some people i've never met before in local cafes for informal community cohesion chats over black coffee and an asda doughnut.






















http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rj6QilYg5VA

swoon.